So today is Friday, a full week past when I last saw Tommy, it was about this same time of the day too. Me and Tasha stayed up talking, crying, remembering, trying to deal with this pain until after 3 am last night. I'm paying for it now, headache from lack of sleep. That and all the crying makes them worst. Tommy's mama said that we are all going to have to do what we can to learn to live without him in our lives. I know she's right, oh I don't even know how to comfort them, just be here, that's all I know to do. Along with the worries over money, I think we are going to loss our car, we just can't afford the payments anymore, our bills are too high, we're not making it by anymore & everything is getting further behind. If only I could get some sales, just some to help pay the minimums on our bills. And the debts just get bigger & bigger. Life sucks sometimes.