This past 2 months have really been doing a job on my stress level...Tommy's death,  my sister is trying to deal with that, me along side her. I have attempted to permanently cut ties with my birth parents, I feel like it was a mistake, but I better off without them bring me down with their negativity and bad influence on me & my kids lives, but now I feel bad about it at same time.  My nanny (that raised me) who also had a heart attack right before Tommy died got ROBBED, she's so upset, they stole her money, presents, trashed her house...looks like kids did it, but still....and then my granny (my father's mom) is in Macon ICU on continuous dialysis cause she's in renal failure. And with tube down her throat.  She can't communicate. And to top all that off, Dwane got a flippin' speeding ticket yesterday, that we DO NOT have the $$$ for. :(  So much for thinking we'd have a decent Christmas this year, guess it will be totally handmade.