personal blog: Just another manic Monday. Not really. But a blue Monday for sure.  Maybe hormones are more to blame today, I feel down, and sore, and sort of angry, and nervous. This morning that Granny's gone, hit me, hit me like a ton of bricks, so they say. I was outside, and something, the light on the fence, the wind, just something set me off. When I think of all those times I meant to go down there & see her, I knew it, I knew she'd go while she was in the hospital, I didn't wanna see that, or see her laying in that coffin, seeing my brother break down, my dad, and all those emotions from my past. Uggghh, my mind never stops, I wish I could control it. So I could fall asleep easier at night. And then I feel like something else is about to happen, but not to me, someone else i love, so i wish she'd just wake up too.